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It’s been the longest winter without you
I didn’t know where to turn to
See somehow I can’t forget you
After all that we’ve been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who’s there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn’t know
If you didn’t notice you mean everything
Quickly I’m learning to love again
All I know is I’m gonna be ok
Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time
I couldn’t turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I’m dreaming don’t wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that’s the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
Since there’s no more you and me
It’s time I let you go (no, it cant be)
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I’ll be fine without you (actually not)
Yes I will………………not

I didn’t want much, you were always by my side
The way you talk and your smile always made me smile
I didn’t hate it

Really? I didn’t know because you always smiled as if you were a little annoyed
Look at my eyes, do you mean it?
Sometimes, without even knowing, I think of the cold you
It’s strange how my heart races
One season, two seasons pass and it’s been a year

But the thing I can’t forget
Is the sound of your laugh whenever I talked
Really? I didn’t know because you were always frustrated with me
You were always pouting and mad, it was so cute
Sometimes, without even knowing, I hear your voice in my ears
I try to cover my ears but it’s no use

How have you been? I’ll ask first
I’m… doing really well
Stop lying
Although we don’t know everything about each other…

For me, it was good
How we used to care for each other
For me, it’ll be painful
Even when the seasons endlessly change
But it’s alright
But it’s alright

Without even knowing, I was holding the phone.
It’s me, it’s been a long time.
Because it was so hard, because I felt bad if I held you back.
Because I regret letting you go, I just let out a sigh.
Because I was so surprised, I couldn’t speak.
I was holding on to my trembling heart.
Are you struggling a lot? Where are you?
Before I could even ask, tears fell down.
Just by hearing the sound of your breath.
When tears fall, even my smallest cherished memories don’t know what to do.
Because it hurt so much, we promised to let each other go.
But whenever I’m not sure I can do it, please let me hear at least your breath.

At least you’ll understand

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Inget kata John Green? “My thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellations.” Dan itulah bintang yang aku maksud: buah pikiran. Tiap hari, di langit aku selalu ada bintang baru, dan bintang-bintang itu tidak selalu berhubungan satu sama lain, which I like, karena bagi aku bintang-bintang…

That’s a little fast, and I’m saying that.

(Source: tayllorswifts)

Please stay here
Because its you

I tried spending a day without you
But the unbearable pain holds me in
I need to love without you
But I don’t even have the smallest space

I miss you

I cry out loud, but you won’t hear
But again today, I only say your name

I try to comfort myself, telling myself to stop
But I can’t get you out of my head

"I was close enough to see your pain and I still couldn’t do anything for you. I thought I could help. I’m just an idiot."

That’s not true. You’ve always been there to encourage me. You’ve always listened to the things I couldn’t tell anyone else. When I’m depressed, you make me laugh. You’ve always stayed by my side…

(Source: illegiblesigns)

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Satu hal yang patut digarisbawahi when it comes to writing about your feelings (kata-katanya diulang mulu, jangan bosen ya): tulis sesegera mungkin ketika perasaan itu sedang kuat-kuatnya. Karena at least aku sudah membuktikan, bahwa perasaan itu tidak akan pernah bisa terulang dengan persis…